day 2 and counting...

You would think I was going through rehab based on my title, and to tell you the truth, it kind of feels like it. I am attempting to fight through some deadly habits (i see watching life pass you by as pretty deadly), and the temptation to fall back is strong.

 As I observe life, mainly my own, I have deduced that it is easier to live while using "crutches" than it is to become strong enough to walk without them. For instance, it appears easier to live with an addiction, and suffer the consequential guilt and remorse, than it would be to break said addiction. And so the vicious cycle continues. 

Today is a good day though, and I am acutely more aware of my surroundings. Teachable moments with my students seem to have presented themselves much more readily today. I even think at one point that I found myself "caught up" in the moment, living for the moment even. I needed that deja vu moment, a brief "ah ha!" if you would, for tomorrow is another big day.

I face a crowd of 24 tomorrow and the traditional modes of easing public speaking anxiety simply wont work in this atmosphere. 9 year olds are vicious, 10 seconds of transition time being just enough for them to eat you alive. So I hope and pray that the few "teachable moments" (genuine teacher/student connections) from today will be enough to propel me through tomorrow. 

A toast: to new adventures, and possibly embracing failure!

(or...grabbing it by the horns and making it call you "Uncle")